I am my own worst enemy! Well, anyone who knows me well knows that!
I have no patience at all. If I want something; I want it right
now! If I can't do something, I get absolutely furious with myself and shout at everyone!
I get frustrated so easily too, which I guess ties it all in together.
Someone I follow on twitter summed it up perfectly, her twitter name is
Bahtocancer and as you can guess she is currently going through chemotherapy. She said: 'It astonishes me that I can 'do' cancer but am reduced to tears by a problem setting up pages on my website.'.
I know
exactly what she means for I'm that way myself. I can cope with injuries to the kids, pets, emergencies, whatever - but stupid things drive me absolutely
WILD!
I started selling yarn this week. I spent a happy couple of afternoons throwing dye around and ended up with 19 skeins (two of which were a custom order from Kerry). It was great and I loved the results.
I then spent
hours uploading everything to my
Folksy shop (Folksy takes aaaaaaaaaages!) and announced that the shop was ready to the masses that were waiting - ok....not 'masses' exactly....more like
Kerry,
Diane and
Rita! But they were there waiting on twitter and it was all
sooooooooo exciting!
Well, they each bought something - thank you, ladies, loves ya! - and I packaged it all up for posting this morning.
Then today, I decided I really should create a spreadsheet detailing my incoming and outgoing where the shop is concerned. I fought with the damn thing for
two hours! Everytime I entered in the SUM formula thingy, I just got a red triangle!
I went and yelled at everyone on twitter and the troops rallied and we eventually got it sorted, but the fact that I
swear I entered that stupid forumla countless times and it didn't work for two hours enraged me!
So, this afternoon, I sat down and did some spinning to relax. That all went well, then the announcement came out that advertising slots were available on Ravelry. I thought that would be a really good idea so went along to have a look.
I had to register for advertising and then upload my banner - it refused my banner because it was the incorrect size. I've finally managed to adjust it to a different size, but it didn't load as I was looking at it - I just had a box with grey and white stripes!
My banner is naff anyway. I can't design for toffee and I just don't understand how to manipulate the image for different websites - why the hell can't the sites just change the banner automatically for you? I can't even get the Folksy one to not look all warped and stretched!
I'd love to have my own site - but last time I even considered it, I got so angry at all the technical babble the 'build your own sites' sites threw at me, that I gave up with a pounding headache!
Someone said 'go to college and learn what you want to know' but it doesn't stay in my head! The kids think I'm hysterical; I'll sit and play a game on the x-box and I'll spend an hour going round in circles totally oblivious to the fact that I'm actually lost!
If I don't write it down, I forget it! Everything goes into my phone with an alarm to remind me. I've been known to look at my diary at 10am, see there's an appointment at midday and then promptly forget about the appointment.
I'm clumsy and I knock things over all the time!
But I get soooo frustrated at myself and my limitations!
It's taken me over a week to get over Wonderwool. I was so exhausted, then I had the vertigo attack and fell on the stairs. I finally recovered and got on with the dyeing. I spent a couple of hours at a time in the kitchen, but it still made my back ache!
Yesterday, I sat down to reskein the yarn. Unfortunately, Mum's skeiner didn't want to play and everything kept tightening as I turned it, so I gave up with that and decided to wind the yarn around the legs of my largest table from my nest of tables.
I wound 17 of the skeins. It took all day and by the end of it, I was exhausted and my back was in agony.
Some of the muscles under my shoulders are still in spasm today.
That's not right. None of it!
I'm 34 years old! Not 68 like my Mum (who is probably more physically able than I am!), I shouldn't have to rest for a couple of hours after running the vacuum around downstairs. I shouldn't suffer pain from standing for more than ten minutes.
I shouldn't spend a week or more recovering from being on my feet for a couple of days!
I'm amazed I remember how to breathe!